It's been a while since I've had time to post here. I finished finals over a week ago, but my life since then has been utterly consumed by other things.

The biggest thing lately has been my internship search. I have to do a 200 hour field placement in the spring, and it was fucking hard to find an internship for it. I finally got one, though. The best part is that it's at one of the biggest addiction treatment centers in the Midwest, and that my professor told me not to bother even calling them, because it was a very slim chance I'd get an internship from them. I figured I'd try anyway, since I am qualified to work there already. I had my first interview last Tuesday, then on Thursday the guy in charge of internships emailed me to tell me he found me a supervisor. I have an interview with her a week from tomorrow, which is pretty much just a formality to see if we're comfortable with each other. Then I have my orientation, and I'll be able to start!

Work has been absolutely killing me lately too. I started back on a full-time schedule this week, which is a little weird. I haven't worked more than a 6 hour shift since August, so an 8 hour shift is really long. But I've actually got all short shifts again this week, oddly enough, and somehow I managed to get Christmas Eve off without even asking. So I'm content, pretty much.

Other than that, I guess there's not a whole lot going on. Now that I have an internship I'm hoping to have some more time during the day to work on doing a few things with ~Obey-Me that I had been planning for break. Might have some time/inspiration for a bit of writing again, we'll see. So, until next time, ciao!


"They say you grow outta loving rock 'n' roll but it's such a huge part of me. It feels like music raised me, adopted me, saved my life." -Nikki Sixx

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Recent Submissions (Yes, I love them ):
Daybreak
Awake, Alive, Asleep (part 1)
Acid Dreams
Golden God
The Plague Pt 1


Poetry Exercises/Challenges:
11/10/08 - 10-line poem in which each line is a lie:
Ten Thousand Lies
11/11/08 - Circular/Crime Poem (description on dev):
Circular/Crime Poem
11/12/08 - Poem using any sense primarily except sight:
Autumn's Pillow
11/13/08 - Endless Poem (description on dev):
4:20 PM




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Well, the last few weeks have been crazy busy. End of the semester and getting ready for finals...But I'm finally done! I had my last final tonight. I'm so ready for winter break, too.

There hasn't really been a whole lot going on to report. I've been spending most of my time working on papers and studying and working and going to NA. It's been very crazy. I haven't been sleeping too well (plan on fixing that soon!!), and I've been having some intense caffeine binges (yay for coffee!). But now it's time to relax.

The only thing worth noting from this past couple of weeks is that yesterday I hit 30 days clean. Got a spiffy new keytag to commemorate it at NA.


"They say you grow outta loving rock 'n' roll but it's such a huge part of me. It feels like music raised me, adopted me, saved my life." -Nikki Sixx

Plugin' it baybee. . . .PRoach Riot

Recent Submissions (Yes, I love them ):
Daybreak
Awake, Alive, Asleep (part 1)
Acid Dreams
Golden God
The Plague Pt 1


Poetry Exercises/Challenges:
11/10/08 - 10-line poem in which each line is a lie:
Ten Thousand Lies
11/11/08 - Circular/Crime Poem (description on dev):
Circular/Crime Poem
11/12/08 - Poem using any sense primarily except sight:
Autumn's Pillow
11/13/08 - Endless Poem (description on dev):
4:20 PM




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Just a quick update, because I wanna tell everyone. Today I have 2 weeks clean.


"They say you grow outta loving rock 'n' roll but it's such a huge part of me. It feels like music raised me, adopted me, saved my life." -Nikki Sixx

Plugin' it baybee. . . .PRoach Riot

Recent Submissions (Yes, I love them ):
Daybreak
Awake, Alive, Asleep (part 1)
Acid Dreams
Golden God
The Plague Pt 1


Poetry Exercises/Challenges:
11/10/08 - 10-line poem in which each line is a lie:
Ten Thousand Lies
11/11/08 - Circular/Crime Poem (description on dev):
Circular/Crime Poem
11/12/08 - Poem using any sense primarily except sight:
Autumn's Pillow
11/13/08 - Endless Poem (description on dev):
4:20 PM




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i'll.hope.to.die
but.the.needle
is.already.in.my.eye


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Not much to report tonight. I just really wanted to say this here, because I'm fucking proud as shit of myself today.

I looked back to make sure I had mentioned it, and I noticed the lack of clarity in an earlier journal. I said that I had started going to NA meetings. Well, specifically, I started going to online NA meetings. They're basically run the same as a regular, face-to-face meeting, just held in a chatroom. Well, it's now been about a month since I started going to those, and on my own and with a good friend and support, the conversation keeps coming back to why I'm not going to regular meetings yet.

The night before I went to my first online meeting I tried to go to a regular meeting. I ended up sitting in my car across the street for about 10 minutes, freaking out because I was scared. Hell, I was terrified of going into that meeting. I settled for online meetings after that, because I felt comfortable there, and it was easier for me to share.

Since then, I've used twice. So the conversation keeps coming back to why I'm not yet going to regular meetings. That's where the conversation was last night when I was talking to my friend. So I made the decision that if I didn't go soon, I was going to chicken out again and not go. And I had been wondering if regular meetings would help me more too, I was just still scared of going. So I got on the NA website and looked up meetings that were today. I found one that was pretty much on my way home from class, at noon.

Today I went to my first regular NA meeting.

I got there and sat in the car for a little while, freaking out like last time. Then for some reason, as a woman pulled up in a truck next to me and started walking in to the meeting, I found this little bit of strength from somewhere. I said to myself, "fuck this, I can fucking do this. What am I waiting for?" And I got out and went inside. It was actually really great. Everyone at the meeting was really cool and welcoming, and I am totally going to go back next week. I wish there was a way I could make more meetings work in my schedule, but for now all I can do is the Mon/Wed/Fri noon meetings. Which I think is ok, I'm still going to supplement with online meetings. I just had to tell everyone, because I'm seriously fucking proud of myself tonight.


"They say you grow outta loving rock 'n' roll but it's such a huge part of me. It feels like music raised me, adopted me, saved my life." -Nikki Sixx

Plugin' it baybee. . . .PRoach Riot

Recent Submissions (Yes, I love them ):
Daybreak
Awake, Alive, Asleep (part 1)
Acid Dreams
Golden God
The Plague Pt 1


Poetry Exercises/Challenges:
11/10/08 - 10-line poem in which each line is a lie:
Ten Thousand Lies
11/11/08 - Circular/Crime Poem (description on dev):
Circular/Crime Poem
11/12/08 - Poem using any sense primarily except sight:
Autumn's Pillow
11/13/08 - Endless Poem (description on dev):
4:20 PM




i'll.cross.my.heart
i'll.hope.to.die
but.the.needle
is.already.in.my.eye


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Good morning everyone! I got up early today for a meeting (that's half an hour late ), so I figured I'd update my journal now before starting on my writing.

AFI was an interesting experience this weekend. The friend I went with was texting me the night before and told me that the old friend I haven't talked to since March (I know I've talked about fighting with him here before) was going too. I wasn't sure how that would go, but we actually ended up having a really good time together. Surprisingly, hearing songs off DecemberUnderground reminded both of us of driving around at school in his car listening to that album after it came out.

The opening band, Gallows, was insane. They're a punk band from England. They were insane. I think they almost spent more time in (or on, lol) the crowd than on stage. But I very much enjoyed them.

After that was the only bad experience of the night. For some reason about 30 seconds into AFI's opening song I had a massive panic attack, and on my way out of the crowd I blacked out. It was intense and scary, but I got out and ran into the old friend we met up with there. He and I got some water and watched the rest of the show from the balcony. All I ended up missing was Girls Not Grey, which they apparently played while I was blacked out.

So far I've found 7 bruises from the girls around us trying to elbow their way in front of me. I don't think I've ever been in a crowd that inconsiderate. I'm glad I fell on my way out where I did, because I couldn't function enough at that point to get up on my own, and there was a guy right there who helped me back up. But it was crazy, and I really was not thrilled with the crowd at all.

I guess that's pretty much all that's going on lately. I'm still waiting for today's meeting to start. Then this afternoon one of my classes is canceled, so I'm taking advantage of the time to try and get caught up on my NaNo. I've only written about 1,400 words in the last couple days, so I'm still a good 6,000 words behind where I should be. But it shouldn't be too hard to catch up, as long as I just sit my ass down and write!

Until next time, take care!


"They say you grow outta loving rock 'n' roll but it's such a huge part of me. It feels like music raised me, adopted me, saved my life." -Nikki Sixx

Plugin' it baybee. . . .PRoach Riot

Recent Submissions (Yes, I love them ):
Daybreak
Awake, Alive, Asleep (part 1)
Acid Dreams
Golden God
The Plague Pt 1


Poetry Exercises/Challenges:
11/10/08 - 10-line poem in which each line is a lie:
Ten Thousand Lies
11/11/08 - Circular/Crime Poem (description on dev):
Circular/Crime Poem
11/12/08 - Poem using any sense primarily except sight:
Autumn's Pillow
11/13/08 - Endless Poem (description on dev):
4:20 PM




i'll.cross.my.heart
i'll.hope.to.die
but.the.needle
is.already.in.my.eye


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My Art Account:

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Featured piece at
~TheBlackFlame:
Sun Tattoo
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